Sunday, November 23, 2008


I have never been patient. When I was a child I wanted to grow up so badly and everyone around me said I needed to be patient, that I would be a grown up before I knew it. Twenty years later I still haven't mastered the art of patience, but I'm trying.

This blog was created with the idea that I could share my thoughts on what's going on in my life and that I would hold very little back, but even that has changed. Many of you know what is going on in my personal life and I have been disciplined about not discussing it on my blog. And for those of you who don't know, you can shoot me an e-mail and I will gladly discuss it with you. So without going into details here, I will discuss as much as I can.

It's been an incredibly hard month for me and I've been pretty good about "letting go and letting God." I'm holding up my end of the bargain, but I'm having a hard time putting my faith in God and letting Him guide me at his pace. I want Him to lead me to my next journey in life NOW and I thought he had led me there this past week, but I was wrong.

It's been a month now and I think I've handled it pretty well, but this past week was difficult. I thought my path would have been shown to me by now, but it's not the case. I'm praying constantly for the strength needed to get through this, and the patience to know that when the time is right, God will put me on the path. I just hope it happens soon. :)


Lindsey said...

I quote my wise boyfriend when I say, "When has something never worked out?"... its true- it may be a weird and frustrating path, but it will end and it will be OK. I promise! Keep that smart head up, remember to enjoy the season, and to lean on those around you!!!

Jessica said...

Yeah, patience is a hard one for me, too. But you're amazing and it will work out.

Wishing you luck and I'll be praying for you!

Becky Mochaface said...

Patience doesn't come easily. But trust and have faith that it will work out. Because it will.

Grant Family Central! said...

Hey girl! Understanding that you are working on God's time and not yours in the key to patience. We can all way that 'Yeah I understand that' though, do we truly? I ask only because even as we are little children, as you stated, we want to grow up so fast (I am seeing this now with my kids) - though, as an adult we don't "let go and let God" as often as we should even though we want to admit that we have. I do understand this - times are frustrating - I've been there myself. Open your heart & get down on your knees and pray that the power of the Holy Spirit calms your nerves and gives you patience as you go through this frustrating time. It'll come, believe me, it WILL come. Just keep praying and keep 'let go & let God' - just always remember to keep your heart open for whatever plan there is.


Martha Elaine Belden said...

you're amazing, and i'm (again) praying for you. it WILL work out! you know this... even if patience eludes you.

and believe me... i TOTALLY feel you on the patience front. i literally have NO patience.

we gotta work on that, friend :)