Spring is just around the corner and with the warm(er) weather and increased sunshine come lifted spirits. My Debbie Downer funk strained my relationship and began to push away the one person who is my entire support system up here. I was so busy focusing on all the negativity consuming me that I never stopped to realize the blessings and love I have right in front of me!
It's such a vicious cycle and I feel awful about complaining about my "problems" when I see people who have actually suffered; they have a right to complain about their dark days. Fortunately my funk lifted and surprisingly enough things are looking up here. Work is getting better and I'm finally starting to "get it" with what I'm supposed to be doing. With increased confidence comes greater results for my clients and that relates back to me doing a good job.
We're starting to make some friends and hang out with more people and now that spring is just around the corner we'll be hanging out even more and getting to know people better which will strengthen our friendships.
Also, Stephen and I start volleyball tonight with some of my colleagues and Stephen has promised to coach me and whip my butt into volleyball shape. I know that as I continue to play and practice I'll develop into a better player and I'm looking forward to his advice and expertise. And it will be fun to play on a team with him. I just feel bad for whoever is on the receiving end of one of his brutal kills.